I've suffered a great many catastrophies in my life. Most of which never happened. - Mark Twain (183
Recently I've been trying to find out more about the Law Of Attraction, it's something I've been interested in for a few years now and last night I watched "The Secret" on Netflix.
As a composer / musician self doubt is ever present, I start every new commission with an idea of how I want it to sound then the familiar process starts.....
"does this track sound right?" "Will it sound as good tomorrow?" "has this melody been used before?" "Am I really any good at this?" "why am I even doing this?"
these thoughts churp away almost to the point of giving up altogether, then at the last minute as if by magic it all comes together in a flash and I am on top of the world.....a few hours later the phone rings, client is happy, time passes and the feeling of utopia gradually fades into the distance until a new commission comes along and the whole story repeats itself, Is it worth it and what does this have to do with the Law of Attraction?
Well you attract into your life what ever you dwell upon the most, good or bad, so for me a music career was always foremost in my mind so once I made that decision I went about the business to acheive it, even when self doubt was always lurking in the background it added the fuel to prove to myself I could improve on my last piece of work.
Stephen Fry was asked whether he would take medication for his bipolar disorder, after a long pause he answered no as he says "I need that other dark side, it's part of what I do"
Perhaps this is the place where all art form is created, the constant need for appreciation, recognition, plaudits from fellow creatives are like a food to the soul without them life seems dark and unrewarding.
I sometimes envy people who have "normal jobs" the typeof individuals that lack any real ambition to do anything other than the 9-5 job they're in, a job that has no bearing on their persona, they seem happier, more grounded individuals from my perspective, and go through life without a 2nd thought to achieve anything more, maybe If I were to walk in their shoes for a while I might see things a little differently.
A few years ago there was a car I wanted and couldn't stop thinking about, it was out of my price range at the time so I decided to lower my sights a little, to my surprise a month laterI received some royalties for more or less the exact amount of the car I was wanting, when I bought my first house I needed to find a 10% deposit, once again some overseas royalties more or less covered it, my 737 flight simulator started as a burning desire and once again it's now a reality.
This probably sounds like pie in the sky nonsense to a lot of people, reading that last paragraph I admit it does sound implausible, impossible even, but nonetheless I believe there is something in it.
The mind is a place of it's own, it can make a heaven of a hell or a hell of a heaven. -